Just a Number

Because today is the 16th…

“HOW LONG DOES GRIEF TAKE?

My father left almost 3 years ago, and I feel in every cell of my body all the stages of loss, sometimes in just one day:

- Denial: every time I think of calling him to tell him something new or to ask for advice;

- Anger: when I find myself angry with Life for taking my daddy from me when I still need him so much;

- Negotiation: when I go back and forth thinking about how I can fake this and pretend that nothing happened;

- Deep sadness: whenever I burst into tears while driving home or whenever I am invaded by a deep pain in my chest;

- Acceptance: when I realize that it has been a privilege to have him with me all these years and that he lives inside me forever.

I don’t know how long this will take to heal.

I don’t even know how I’ll be after this storm passes through me.” MM