Goodbye

My love,

I write you this letter with a heavy and confused heart, but with the certainty that I need to be honest with you, with myself, and with what I feel.

It is not easy to put into words what I have been feeling lately, but I need to do it, because it is important to me and, I believe, to us.

Throughout our relationship, I always thought I wanted to be in control, that this sense of dominance would bring me security and make me happy.

For a long time, it worked, or at least it seemed to. However, for some time now, I have felt that this way of being no longer makes sense to me.

I don’t know exactly when this began, but I feel, deeply, that I am no longer the same person.

Today, I realize that I have a great need to let this role go, to allow myself to be vulnerable, to lower my defences, to find someone who can hold me, who can take care of me.

But before that, I need to understand who I am, what I am looking for, what I truly want for my life. I am in a moment of great inner confusion, and I feel that I need some time for myself.

I want you to know that this request for time is not due to a lack of love or respect for you.

It is precisely because I love and respect you that I feel I cannot continue without resolving what is happening inside me.

I am afraid of hurting you or of not being able to be the partner you deserve while I am in this internal struggle.

I need to find myself, to understand what truly makes me happy and what my priorities are.

And this is something only I can do.

I don’t want you to interpret this as a definitive distancing or as a reflection of something you did wrong. You are incredible, and for that very reason, I feel I owe you this honesty.

I hope you can understand and respect my request for space.

It hurts, but I believe that if it is for the good of each of us, it may also be for the good of our relationship in the future, whatever path it may take.

Thank you for everything you are and for everything we have already shared.

I want you to know that you are very important to me

and I hope this time helps me find the answers I need.