Mother & Daughter's Love

I need you to hear this first: I love you.

I love you more than anything, more than words can hold. I hope you feel it, even when i’m quiet, even when life gets messy, in the way i think about you, in the way i worry about you, in the way you’re always in my heart.

This past year has been so hard. The separation, the divorce, moving… trying to figure out a new way to live. That’s a lot for anyone. And for you, my sensitive, kind, amazing girl, it must have felt like the ground shifted beneath your feet.

I see how much you’ve had to adjust, how much you’ve had to be brave and i want you to know... you’re so brave. Even when you don’t feel like it, even when you feel small or tired.

Lately, i feel like we’ve grown a little apart and i can’t hide how much that hurts me.

Not because of anything you did, never that, but because being close to you is everything to me. I miss your laugh, your stories, your hugs. I miss the way we used to talk and just… be together. I hope, slowly, we can find our way back to each other.

There’s something i need you to always remember. On the day i found out I was pregnant with you, my world changed in that instant. From that moment on, i wasn’t just living for me anymore, i was living for you too.

You became my little star, my purpose, my miracle. And you still are. Every single day.

My pregnancy wasn’t easy. I felt alone a lot, without the support i needed.

You’re too young to understand all of that now, and that’s okay. One day, when you’re ready, we can talk about it, about the hard moments, about what led me to the separation. But never, ever think it was your fault. You were, and are, the most beautiful thing that’s ever happened to me.

This isn’t about the past or mistakes. It’s about us. I’m sorry for the times i hurt you, for the moments i couldn’t protect you from change.

I’m still learning. I’m still growing. I’m trying, every single day, to be the mom you deserve.

No matter what, i will always love you. Always.

I’ll always be here, listening, caring, holding you... even from far away, even when it’s quiet, even on the hardest days.

You never have to earn my love. It’s yours. Always.

Mom